I'm having a hard time pulling my motorcycle from my garage. This photo represents my last good memory of riding. I lost the desire to ride, the day I lost the person I rode with. Losing someone is a 7 stage process. I believe I am in the 4th stage of grief; depression, reflection, and loneliness. Next: The Upward Turn. This is when the storm is over. A calmness settles in. My physical symptoms, like the need to vomit constantly or the lump in my throat start to leave my body. My depression lifts slightly out of my body.